I wish...

• I wish my weight would stay stable at 8 stone 3 as I've dropped down to 7 st...
• I wish the last few years hosptial wise never happened...
• I wish I didn't have to make the decision whether I should have this eyelid lift procedure...
• I wish that in the future there will be a moment where I'll actually think I am going to get my PEG removed...
• I wish that I could eat a whole variety of foods and wasn't fussy as hell, life and teatime would be so much easier...
• I wish my brother would talk to me more...
• I wish I was a kid again, because I coped so much better with hosptial stuff

These are the things that have been going through my mind the last few days, of course it may be hormone charged of that time of month but they are very real things that I wish were better and those things get to me and make me upset. Any other time, I would be totally positive and these rare times that I get down, those 7 things seem heavily on my mind.

Im grateful for the friends such as the C.I friends that I have met in the last year or so thanks to this blog, etc Vivie and Kara, they understand me and hosptial stuff and don't half make me laugh when I'm down! :) and meeting my lovley boyfriend who makes me feel so very happy!

Although lately, I've noticed that nothing of my upsets have absolutly nothing to do with my cochlear implant because thats still fantastic and it's so much a part of me, that I dont't notice it anymore what with all the more serious hospital stuff. It may have been the very first thing I had operated on me but I love it! I don't know what I would be like if I could'nt hear music or voices. It makes such a transformation to people's lives.

Anyway, I'm feeling much happier today and I'm goinna do me some cross stitching! :) After all, I'm only human to get upset now and again. x